Can I ever Trust?

Since back in 2014 I haven't been able to trust men in my life. Did not help that during that time I was being abused by my partner, nothing physical but everything else... socially, mentally, financially, verbally.... and I didn't notice it was happening to me till the end of the relationship. 2017.... After that I was raped by a man I knew in 2018...

But now cuz of all that I can't seem to trust my own partner that is NOTHING like my ex's... I love him with all my heart, he is the sweetest, kindness, most gentle person I could ever imagen. All he wants is for me and my son to be happy... but lately since we don't live together, my insecurities are coming back to haunt me. I sadly have a week to show him that I can prove to him that I can trust him or we are ending it for good.... cuz what's the point of being in a relationship where trust isn't there....

If he ever reads this, I am truly sorry for everything I have done to hurt you my love. You are perfect for me and anyone would be lucky to have you as their partner in life.

- Roxxie